Thursday, January 07, 2010
their rotating day work won't be affecting me anymore,
since i am going to change dept. =/
i'm already finishing my itp and now they want me to change?
got to readjust and all, haii~
i haven been to the boat and all know.
i nv like test,
especially when u are one of the few to walk out first.
it onli shows 2 things, those well prepared and not.
in my case, its usually the later.
wad will u do if u know u dun have much time left?
how will one's life change when one know when will be gone.
changes could be made.
but wad if, u're left with onli 1 day.
say.. when the clock strike 12 midnight, 24 hours countdown.
your life journal will stop.
do all the things u would not normally?
stay with ppl dearest to you till the last moments?
spend ur savings to buy things u always wanted?
telling ppl around u wad u always wanted to say, telling them u're fine when they question "you are acting weird today?"--- its normally like that isn't it?
or simply find a beautiful place, get a quiet corner and spend it there?
Monday, January 04, 2010
i did it again!!
it have already taken me long enuff.
get it right,
its not the course fault
its not the sch's fault
its not with the friends.
its me. accept it!!
as of most companies, major change are bound to happen
just hope its not going to be when i'm there.
today is a bad start at work,
wad we all thought would be over. has been replace and restart.
the cycle nv seems to end.
it seems like its me the onli one who got 2 on the list so far.
=/
Sunday, January 03, 2010
its onli starting of the month,
and there u have it.
its like the second time i ever spend so much in a single day.
it is way over.
looks like its finished for my allowance
i should cut down on outing and eating budget
was just back from the group bbq,
its been so long since the so many gather.
its rather a good start for the year.
many are complaining bout sch reopen,
as for me, its no diff since i nv had holiday in the first place.
=]
2 1/2 months to go
11 weeks to go
53 days to go.
and its free.
Friday, January 01, 2010
2009 has come to an end,
its have not been a good year the fact it started even earlier.
enough of complains i believe, its time pack and start afresh.
have been thinking alot over the days,
and i wonder what would it be like if i had went to Riverside,
which the first instinct had occur.
going to normal taking a slower pace.
maybe i'll do better and won't end up in this course
and its a better sch to many,with my result that is.
will things still turn out like now? or its a better one?
but i have never regret my choice.
truth over the years is, i have been such a disappointment.
i'm sry.
to my family,
especially my grandparents,
i'm sorry i'm doing to expectation,
sry i didn't fulfill wad i have promise,
sry i lied about still doing okay in sch, thats not ok, nt enuff.
sry for not spending enuff time there.
to my friends,
sry i have not been a very good friend,
to always hide in my own world, in my shadow,
sry for not being true.
to myself,
sry i've disappointed u the most.
for the change,
for losing your old self.
rest assure as for this new year,
everything is going to start afresh,
and will be better.
i am looking forward 2010.
My New Year Resolution for 2010 is,
Have a great year.
Get a job.
Treat myself better.
Obtain PPCDL .
Obtain drivers license.
Complete ITP with a gd record best an A.
Start training, (i gotta get my gear first =/)
Spend more time with friends,family and less for myself.
go on well deserved break to slowly throw away this old self and start new.
stop hiding in the shadow slowly turning into geek.
Get involve in YOG and have fun.
Enjoy every event, even alone.
=] Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, December 28, 2009
today was totally weird,
it doesn't seems to be like a normal working day.
train is less crowed, coffee-shops are less crowed.
if onli everyday was like that.
bowling with the group,
once again, it seems to have become our weekly activity.
the onli weird thing is that i wasn't in the right state of mind.
despite the fact of terrible games,
the fun seems to have made ppl willingly spend.
it would be better if not for that misbehaving hand.
enjoy this while still can i should.
wads in plan next i wonder.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas,
this year is most likely to staying at home throughout.
bored bored bored.
and once again, reality won, its not this christmas. =]
was looking through "my life"
trying to figure out wad have i done for the past christmas...
and yea, i think this will be v.long. lets see...
05' christmas was a big hit to me,
couldn't get over, couldn't let it go despite trying.
06' christmas was great i suppose,
spending the time with family.
haven seen sis for a long time le.
maybe i should go back for christmas since its like this here.
07' christmas was so busy,
but its some great time spend with the SKs,
at least i'm occupied with work.
too bad the whole brand closed in sg alr.
hope got chance can see them again.
08' christmas nth was done, just like this year.
and i couldn't rmb how it was like before 05'
so its either the same or its just pure didn't leave any impression.
that why cannot rmb.
有人问圣诞要如何渡过
他答："我其实很担心也很有压力。应为我没有节目，也没有女朋友，而我的朋友们都有女友相伴过节，看来我会孤独地度过这的节日了。"
How could that be, him leh. So hard to let ppl believe lor.
he is like so popular.
but since he said that, i think it would make alot of ppl feel better.
haha. random comment to someone. so... "look apart" =]
absolute BF special?
The promise.
haha, got things to spend time on le.
face it, it wasn't a promise. its a remark,comment. =] get over it.
given comments on a particular thing,
个性丰富多彩，具冒险精神。设了远大理想，对自己寄予很高期望，并相信最终可以达成目标。
希望家庭成员保持密切联系，给你安全的依靠，让你无后顾之忧。
草莓是水果之中最具少女童话般的情怀。你追求与面貌姣好的异性交往，
并能展开有如童话世界般的罗曼史，甜甜酸酸有点冒险，但这一切不太实际。
你是追求浪漫的情人，不过示爱模式就是送一束玫瑰花和烛光晚餐等老派招数，
创意度较低，难以满足口味刁钻的情人。
你个性慢熟，通常会花很长时间去观察一个人，再决定是否要交往，
即使是相当喜欢对方也不会发动猛烈攻势，所以会让人怀疑你是超级冷感的爱情绝缘体。
how true is this? 0.o
in any case, i'll do my best given the chance. promised.
Monday, December 21, 2009
more thinking was underway.
and i manage to come up with a 曾经单。
got the idea from 诸葛亮 in k.o.3.
我。。。
曾经对羽球充满热诚（现在因该还是想回去），
曾经有不错的体能（我认为啦），
曾经是那么的受宠（也可能是想太多），
曾经拥有物质（认为是理所当然），
曾经在学校担任要职（可说是有风，知名度吧？可笑。），
曾经认为要等待安排（有时是必须临时，当下实行），
曾经遇见天使（因我的无能而失去）
这是我曾经拥有的， 但失去了。你是否想过失去了什么？